I've been in a desert of sorts.
A few of my friends ask why I feel I'm having difficulty connecting with God; after all, who's my Daddy?
The last weeks have been painful - spiritually. I haven't felt God's presence, nor can I hear the Word.
Having one's hands annointed, being consecrated an ordained leader, wearing all the trappings on Sunday mornings and holidays doesn't guarantee instant spiritual connection or enlightenment.
What it does guarantee are moments of uncertainty, doubt, loneliness - just like everybody else.
I keep asking why? I keep asking where are you? When I meditate and use the image of the walk in the forest, there's a boulder in the path - like the giant stone rolled in front of the entrance of Jesus' tomb, or the giant marble that chased Indiana Jones in "Raiders of the Lost Ark". Let me give you a back story.
When I begin my contemplative prayer, I close my eyes and put myself on a path leading into a forest from a field of wheat. I walk through the forest on the path, heading toward a gate, beyond which is a clearing that leads down hill into a valley where there's a castle (well, there'd have to be a castle if it's my imagery, right?) and a village surrounded by hills and lush greenery. It's my goal to pass through the gate and go down to the castle.
I've only reached the gate once.
Lately, as I walk on this path in my mind and heart, the boulder is in the way. There's no way around it. The trees are too thick to walk around and the boulder is too heavy to move.
So I've been trying again and again to walk through this path.
A few minutes ago, while typing the foregoing, it hit me.
I'M THE BOULDER IN THE PATH.
I'm preventing my spiritual connection and journey.
I've let my unhappiness and loneliness build up a wall of sorts to God, when all I need to do is let God.
I need to let it be.
With God's love and mine,
Ellen+
04 June, 2008
12 May, 2008
Leaving the Upper Room
In the beginning, God created humankind from the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and man and women became living beings. Then God blew a breath into Israel, and as Ezekiel tells us, their dead bones came to life. At Pentecost, the culmination of fifty great days, God's breath, a wind, breathes life into the new people of God – the church.
How, in this post-modern, secular world, does God breathe life into us so that we can proclaim the Gospel of Christ? How does the Holy Spirit light the fires in our hearts and minds?
We are Californians, Americans, citizens of other nations living, working and studying here, we are Native American, African, Asian, European, variations on these, and more. Each of us, in our own language, hears the Good News. And each of us, in our own manner, proclaims the Gospel, sometimes, as Brother Francis said once, actually using words – that is how it happened for the apostles in the upper room.
I can't imagine what it would have been like for the followers of Jesus in those first fifty days. They met in a place that was secure, familiar, where they broke bread with Jesus, and where he appeared to them, as in the Gospel of John, where he breathes on them and bestows the Holy Spirit, charging them to forgive sins, commissioning Peter to tend his flock, feed his sheep. This can't be done from the security of the upper room. It has to be done out in the world – a place where they were in danger by association.
Perhaps they doubted their abilities and Jesus wasn't there to lead them, to tell them when they didn't get it, or praise them when they did.
How powerful then, how extraordinary, that they each begin to speak of God's deeds and powers by proclaiming them in the tongues of the people in the crowd? I think the wind and fire that descended in that room, these symbols of God's presence, also gave them the courage to leave that room and begin a ministry that would become the Church as you and I know it. Fires were lit in their hearts and minds and full of confidence, energy, they went out into the streets of Jerusalem where they were accused of being drunk at nine in the morning.
Jesus said this would happen, it would have to happen and it wouldn't be easy. It would have been easy to continue meeting in the upper room, to have people come to them, but what would they do when the room couldn't hold any more people? The body of Christ wasn't for safe quarters behind locked doors – it was meant for people and places beyond Jerusalem. It had life breathed into it with fire and wind. The church was for everyone. Unfortunately, throughout our common history, that spirit was mistaken by some as something for only those who prayed a certain way, believed a certain doctrine, to be held close in upper rooms, a personal messiah. Private spirituality has its place and practice, and I embrace it, but it is out there in the streets, and in the world, that the Church belongs. Because of this relationship, there are bumps in the road that we have to negotiate as best we can – differences of opinion and doctrine that can divide, or even better, bring us together. And we have the Holy Spirit, the breath of God, to guide us. How does the Holy Spirit inspire us to proclaim and live out the Gospel in this post-modern, busy, secular world?
She is the spark that makes us sit up and listen, pay attention, when we hear the Word, discovering in it a commonality with our daily lives, something that makes us say, "Yes, that's what the Kingdom of Heaven is like! It's like my office when we jump in and help someone else with a project, when we make a collection for someone in trouble or sick; it's like my church when we feed the hungry; it's when we show kindness and love to one another just because we want to, not for ulterior motives or to receive something in kind. She is the tongue of fire resting above our heads, encouraging and guiding us to follow the great commandment.
The Holy Spirit reveals Jesus to all who look for him, and brings us into a right relationship with God that in turn, opens us to relationships with each other that are loving and nurturing. It is this same Spirit that is alive in the water of baptism, the bread and wine of our common meal, the oil of healing and chrism. The Spirit resides within each of us while at prayer and leads us out of this our very own Upper Room, this nave, to do Christ's work in the world, to push us beyond what we expect of ourselves, beyond our abilities, and comfort zones.
I don't know about you, but I'm ready to step out of that upper room and take it into the streets.
How, in this post-modern, secular world, does God breathe life into us so that we can proclaim the Gospel of Christ? How does the Holy Spirit light the fires in our hearts and minds?
We are Californians, Americans, citizens of other nations living, working and studying here, we are Native American, African, Asian, European, variations on these, and more. Each of us, in our own language, hears the Good News. And each of us, in our own manner, proclaims the Gospel, sometimes, as Brother Francis said once, actually using words – that is how it happened for the apostles in the upper room.
I can't imagine what it would have been like for the followers of Jesus in those first fifty days. They met in a place that was secure, familiar, where they broke bread with Jesus, and where he appeared to them, as in the Gospel of John, where he breathes on them and bestows the Holy Spirit, charging them to forgive sins, commissioning Peter to tend his flock, feed his sheep. This can't be done from the security of the upper room. It has to be done out in the world – a place where they were in danger by association.
Perhaps they doubted their abilities and Jesus wasn't there to lead them, to tell them when they didn't get it, or praise them when they did.
How powerful then, how extraordinary, that they each begin to speak of God's deeds and powers by proclaiming them in the tongues of the people in the crowd? I think the wind and fire that descended in that room, these symbols of God's presence, also gave them the courage to leave that room and begin a ministry that would become the Church as you and I know it. Fires were lit in their hearts and minds and full of confidence, energy, they went out into the streets of Jerusalem where they were accused of being drunk at nine in the morning.
Jesus said this would happen, it would have to happen and it wouldn't be easy. It would have been easy to continue meeting in the upper room, to have people come to them, but what would they do when the room couldn't hold any more people? The body of Christ wasn't for safe quarters behind locked doors – it was meant for people and places beyond Jerusalem. It had life breathed into it with fire and wind. The church was for everyone. Unfortunately, throughout our common history, that spirit was mistaken by some as something for only those who prayed a certain way, believed a certain doctrine, to be held close in upper rooms, a personal messiah. Private spirituality has its place and practice, and I embrace it, but it is out there in the streets, and in the world, that the Church belongs. Because of this relationship, there are bumps in the road that we have to negotiate as best we can – differences of opinion and doctrine that can divide, or even better, bring us together. And we have the Holy Spirit, the breath of God, to guide us. How does the Holy Spirit inspire us to proclaim and live out the Gospel in this post-modern, busy, secular world?
She is the spark that makes us sit up and listen, pay attention, when we hear the Word, discovering in it a commonality with our daily lives, something that makes us say, "Yes, that's what the Kingdom of Heaven is like! It's like my office when we jump in and help someone else with a project, when we make a collection for someone in trouble or sick; it's like my church when we feed the hungry; it's when we show kindness and love to one another just because we want to, not for ulterior motives or to receive something in kind. She is the tongue of fire resting above our heads, encouraging and guiding us to follow the great commandment.
The Holy Spirit reveals Jesus to all who look for him, and brings us into a right relationship with God that in turn, opens us to relationships with each other that are loving and nurturing. It is this same Spirit that is alive in the water of baptism, the bread and wine of our common meal, the oil of healing and chrism. The Spirit resides within each of us while at prayer and leads us out of this our very own Upper Room, this nave, to do Christ's work in the world, to push us beyond what we expect of ourselves, beyond our abilities, and comfort zones.
I don't know about you, but I'm ready to step out of that upper room and take it into the streets.
13 April, 2008
Shepherds
Today is the fourth of Sunday of Easter, traditionally called "Good Shepherd Sunday." The gospel from John focused on Jesus' exhortation that he is the shepherd and he knows his sheep, that those who enter the fold by the gate are true sheep, and those who enter via the window or over the fence, as it were are theives and bandits.
It's hard to look at this text in context. As one of my friends and parishioners noted this morning at coffee hour, even during Jesus' time it might have been hard for the followers of Jesus to get the allegory of Jesus being the shepherd of a flock, afterall, they were poor urban folk living in Jerusalem, fishermen of Capernaum or Magdala, and Jesus was a carpenter from Nazareth.
Shepherds lived a lonely, solitary life. They brought the sheep out to the pastures beyond the villages and towns, and stayed there all day, watching over their charges to keep them safe from wolves and/or poachers, sometimes staying away from civilization for days and weeks. The shepherds knew their flock, and the sheep knew their shepherd. The shepherd attends his flock with the diligence and care of a father for his children.
Knowing this, seeing Jesus as the Good Shepherd isn't impossible. Jesus came into the world to gather God's children to him, to bring them to the fold, the Kingdom, and lead them to a way of life that it is harmonious with creation. He warns his first century listeners to be wary of those who claim to have the answers, to have the right way of life, for they are the thieves and bandits who jump over the wall or go through a window to get into the fold, rather than follow Jesus through the gate.
Today, the shepherd is as foreign to us as a knight on horseback or a Hobbit. We don't have occasion to see them on our commutes to work and school, not most of us, anyway. Still, the message Jesus offers is worth noting. It's in our best interest to be wary of those who say they have the answers, the secrets to life, those who invite us to get rich quick, to be the alpha dog, the leader of the pack. Strange, as I was typing this, a television commercial was playing in the living room and the jingle went something like, "I want it all . . . I want it all . . . I want it now." Is this the message we want to convey? Having the most doesn't get you into the Kingdom, having all the answers to the most puzzling questions in the universe may get you a spot on a game show, but it doesn't guarantee a place at the table, or a room in the Father's house. Hearing the Word, sharing it, living a life in right relationship and taking right action, a life modelling the gospel to one's best ability invites us to join the fold, to enter by the gate. In this way, we can be shepherds like Jesus. Or if we must be sheep, we will know who our shepherd is.
Alleluia, He is risen.
Go in peace to love and serve the Lord.
Ellen+
It's hard to look at this text in context. As one of my friends and parishioners noted this morning at coffee hour, even during Jesus' time it might have been hard for the followers of Jesus to get the allegory of Jesus being the shepherd of a flock, afterall, they were poor urban folk living in Jerusalem, fishermen of Capernaum or Magdala, and Jesus was a carpenter from Nazareth.
Shepherds lived a lonely, solitary life. They brought the sheep out to the pastures beyond the villages and towns, and stayed there all day, watching over their charges to keep them safe from wolves and/or poachers, sometimes staying away from civilization for days and weeks. The shepherds knew their flock, and the sheep knew their shepherd. The shepherd attends his flock with the diligence and care of a father for his children.
Knowing this, seeing Jesus as the Good Shepherd isn't impossible. Jesus came into the world to gather God's children to him, to bring them to the fold, the Kingdom, and lead them to a way of life that it is harmonious with creation. He warns his first century listeners to be wary of those who claim to have the answers, to have the right way of life, for they are the thieves and bandits who jump over the wall or go through a window to get into the fold, rather than follow Jesus through the gate.
Today, the shepherd is as foreign to us as a knight on horseback or a Hobbit. We don't have occasion to see them on our commutes to work and school, not most of us, anyway. Still, the message Jesus offers is worth noting. It's in our best interest to be wary of those who say they have the answers, the secrets to life, those who invite us to get rich quick, to be the alpha dog, the leader of the pack. Strange, as I was typing this, a television commercial was playing in the living room and the jingle went something like, "I want it all . . . I want it all . . . I want it now." Is this the message we want to convey? Having the most doesn't get you into the Kingdom, having all the answers to the most puzzling questions in the universe may get you a spot on a game show, but it doesn't guarantee a place at the table, or a room in the Father's house. Hearing the Word, sharing it, living a life in right relationship and taking right action, a life modelling the gospel to one's best ability invites us to join the fold, to enter by the gate. In this way, we can be shepherds like Jesus. Or if we must be sheep, we will know who our shepherd is.
Alleluia, He is risen.
Go in peace to love and serve the Lord.
Ellen+
06 April, 2008
Even Christ Went Up on Mountain
During Holy Week, I thought I would report on each of the days and gospel lessons, and also comment on Easter Day. I wasn't expecting exhaustion or depression to come from my favorite of holy seasons.
So I stepped away from theological reflection and stepped back for God to do the work, which meant that I did a lot of sleeping, praying and tried to relax. When you have to bring home the bacon and fry it up in the pan, look after children, and fit ministry around such a life, once in a while the Trinity invites you to do nothing except bask in God's love.
Which is what I did.
Alleluia, he is risen!
Ellen+
So I stepped away from theological reflection and stepped back for God to do the work, which meant that I did a lot of sleeping, praying and tried to relax. When you have to bring home the bacon and fry it up in the pan, look after children, and fit ministry around such a life, once in a while the Trinity invites you to do nothing except bask in God's love.
Which is what I did.
Alleluia, he is risen!
Ellen+
We had hoped . . . .
This week's Gospel from Luke continues the narration of the events of Easter Day.
How is it possible that joy springs from grief?
In the last weeks, we’ve been on the road to Jerusalem with Jesus and his followers. We’ve witnessed the glorious entry into the city, the poignant supper at which a woman anoints Jesus and washes him with her tears, we’ve seen the incredible and necessary raising of Lazarus, and we’ve experienced the Seder in the upper room, and finally the trial and execution of Jesus. After some pretty amazing moments that give life and hope comes a horrific, mind and spirit numbing death. So it’s hard to imagine that something good could come of it. If you, as I, have lost someone you knew, someone you loved, with whom you shared a life, meals, joys and sorrows, then you’ve felt the pain that comes from such loss and the accompanying grief. It’s not hard then, to put ourselves on the road to Emmaus.
My first experience of Emmaus was Rembrandt’s famous painting “The Supper at Emmaus.” In typical fashion for this artist the painting is suffused in soft, dim colors and hues; Jesus’ face is bathed in gold light; he looks wistfully to the heavens and is captured in mid-prayer. The disciples gaze in wonderment.
There’s more to this town, though. It was some seven miles out of Jerusalem, and had a history of violence. It was thought to be the base camp for Judas Maccabeus and his uprising, and it was burned by the Romans in retaliation for the unrest and revolts following the death of Herod – two thousand rebels were crucified there. People in that generation would have memories of the crosses lining the road. On that third day after the crucifixion, a place of defeat and lost hope is restored by Jesus as a place of fellowship and love.
This morning’s story begins when the two disciples on that Sunday afternoon walk away from Jerusalem, perhaps running for their lives, maybe they feel lost, hopeless, let down. They discuss the events of the last week and in particular the discovery at the tomb that very morning. A stranger joins them on the walk and the disciples are amazed that there is actually one person in the region who has not heard about the death and resurrection of Jesus. Here they recount what they’ve been discussing and add a personal postscript: that they had hoped Jesus would be the one to redeem Israel. Let me put that remark in context. There had been prophets before Jesus who claimed to be the Messiah and their message and ministry didn’t strike the right chord with the people. They were executed as Jesus had been, so their missions were considered failures. This is probably what Cleopas and his friend were thinking – here was yet another so-called prophet who didn’t make good on his claims; he, like all the rest, failed and it was business as usual in Roman-governed Palestine.
But Jesus did something different. He kept his promise. He fulfilled the prophecies. He did rise on the third day. These facts, and his message proclaiming the kingdom of heaven, his call to a unique and unconditional love, made this call to right action very different, very powerful – and as we know today, very successful.
The disciples didn’t know this. They are so deep in their misery, they don’t recognize the man walking with them. This stranger interprets scripture and the events of the week as part of the greater story of humanity and of God’s action in the world as chronicled by the prophets and scripture. Yes, it was necessary that Jesus suffered, died and was buried, but death is not the end of the story. He reveals himself to these disciples in an act of love and fellowship that they would have recognized if they had been present during the feeding of the five thousand and if they were at table at the last supper -- a simple breaking of bread and sharing a meal. Something Jesus did every day with his friends. It is at that moment eyes are opened, and memory and recognition come into play. Hearts that have been lit aflame by the interpretation of Scripture still burn after they recognize it was Jesus, who vanishes as mysteriously from their table as he appeared on the road.
The disciples return to Jerusalem, where, by the way, they were commanded to stay by Jesus, and tell their story. Earlier in the day, they didn’t believe the women when they ran back from the empty tomb and tried to tell everyone what they’d seen, but because these two disciples had seen the risen Lord, their doubt becomes belief. Through these events a new community emerges. It is a community of faith built on understanding of scripture, worship and the sharing of a common experience of the risen Christ. Jesus’ words to Thomas from last week’s Gospel are still ringing in our ears: “Blessed are those who had not seen, yet come to believe.” That would be us.
But we’re human, we have our expectations. We had hoped . . .
Each one of us, in our own way and times, has repeated the words of the disciples, “we had hoped.” The first of four times for me was in April of 1969, and if you had told me then that joy came of grief, I would have ignored it, or more probably, slammed my bedroom door shut and turned up the volume on the Moody Blues, the Beatles, or the Rolling Stones – whatever I was annoying my family with that day. I was 15, you see, and my mother had just died unexpectedly. One afternoon she was there, the next morning she was gone. No warning, no nothing. She was gone. The days and weeks that followed were a blur then, and still are. It was full of moments I do remember, moments in which I sought answers and wondered how my brother and sisters were handling their grief – we never talked about it. We had hoped, you see, that she could still be with us.
I’ve thought like this, said these words aloud and to God. What about you? I disobeyed Christ, in that I walked away from Jerusalem, away from the pain and memories, away from the life Christ gave me. The grief clouded my sight and I didn’t want to see past it.
It happens to all of us. We wish we could have had one more day to say all that needed to be said; we wish we could make things right between our loved ones; we wish it all could have been done differently; said “I love you and always have, always will.”
Valid and real thoughts, honest emotions, these.
We weren’t and aren’t alone. We were and are heard. As we hope and wonder, Jesus comes into our lives with words of comfort and hope. We are reminded that God became one of us, and shared our experience, our joys, our grief, our pain. Jesus reminds us that on the Cross, God took and blessed and broke the most perfect of lives and offered it to us in the midst of suffering so that all sadness and pain might become a bridge to a loving, sustaining presence.
And if there’s a small voice within that still hedges, still whispers, “Yes, but . . .” Then come! I invite you to this table. Come here where Jesus invites you, me, all of us, anyone who is hungry to take as often as necessary the bread that he blessed and broke and shared and drink the cup he pours out for all humanity. Your eyes will be opened and your hearts will be burning with hope.
Jesus will always be with us on our roads and at our tables.
He is risen, Alleluia!
With God's love and mine this Easter season,
Ellen+
How is it possible that joy springs from grief?
In the last weeks, we’ve been on the road to Jerusalem with Jesus and his followers. We’ve witnessed the glorious entry into the city, the poignant supper at which a woman anoints Jesus and washes him with her tears, we’ve seen the incredible and necessary raising of Lazarus, and we’ve experienced the Seder in the upper room, and finally the trial and execution of Jesus. After some pretty amazing moments that give life and hope comes a horrific, mind and spirit numbing death. So it’s hard to imagine that something good could come of it. If you, as I, have lost someone you knew, someone you loved, with whom you shared a life, meals, joys and sorrows, then you’ve felt the pain that comes from such loss and the accompanying grief. It’s not hard then, to put ourselves on the road to Emmaus.
My first experience of Emmaus was Rembrandt’s famous painting “The Supper at Emmaus.” In typical fashion for this artist the painting is suffused in soft, dim colors and hues; Jesus’ face is bathed in gold light; he looks wistfully to the heavens and is captured in mid-prayer. The disciples gaze in wonderment.
There’s more to this town, though. It was some seven miles out of Jerusalem, and had a history of violence. It was thought to be the base camp for Judas Maccabeus and his uprising, and it was burned by the Romans in retaliation for the unrest and revolts following the death of Herod – two thousand rebels were crucified there. People in that generation would have memories of the crosses lining the road. On that third day after the crucifixion, a place of defeat and lost hope is restored by Jesus as a place of fellowship and love.
This morning’s story begins when the two disciples on that Sunday afternoon walk away from Jerusalem, perhaps running for their lives, maybe they feel lost, hopeless, let down. They discuss the events of the last week and in particular the discovery at the tomb that very morning. A stranger joins them on the walk and the disciples are amazed that there is actually one person in the region who has not heard about the death and resurrection of Jesus. Here they recount what they’ve been discussing and add a personal postscript: that they had hoped Jesus would be the one to redeem Israel. Let me put that remark in context. There had been prophets before Jesus who claimed to be the Messiah and their message and ministry didn’t strike the right chord with the people. They were executed as Jesus had been, so their missions were considered failures. This is probably what Cleopas and his friend were thinking – here was yet another so-called prophet who didn’t make good on his claims; he, like all the rest, failed and it was business as usual in Roman-governed Palestine.
But Jesus did something different. He kept his promise. He fulfilled the prophecies. He did rise on the third day. These facts, and his message proclaiming the kingdom of heaven, his call to a unique and unconditional love, made this call to right action very different, very powerful – and as we know today, very successful.
The disciples didn’t know this. They are so deep in their misery, they don’t recognize the man walking with them. This stranger interprets scripture and the events of the week as part of the greater story of humanity and of God’s action in the world as chronicled by the prophets and scripture. Yes, it was necessary that Jesus suffered, died and was buried, but death is not the end of the story. He reveals himself to these disciples in an act of love and fellowship that they would have recognized if they had been present during the feeding of the five thousand and if they were at table at the last supper -- a simple breaking of bread and sharing a meal. Something Jesus did every day with his friends. It is at that moment eyes are opened, and memory and recognition come into play. Hearts that have been lit aflame by the interpretation of Scripture still burn after they recognize it was Jesus, who vanishes as mysteriously from their table as he appeared on the road.
The disciples return to Jerusalem, where, by the way, they were commanded to stay by Jesus, and tell their story. Earlier in the day, they didn’t believe the women when they ran back from the empty tomb and tried to tell everyone what they’d seen, but because these two disciples had seen the risen Lord, their doubt becomes belief. Through these events a new community emerges. It is a community of faith built on understanding of scripture, worship and the sharing of a common experience of the risen Christ. Jesus’ words to Thomas from last week’s Gospel are still ringing in our ears: “Blessed are those who had not seen, yet come to believe.” That would be us.
But we’re human, we have our expectations. We had hoped . . .
Each one of us, in our own way and times, has repeated the words of the disciples, “we had hoped.” The first of four times for me was in April of 1969, and if you had told me then that joy came of grief, I would have ignored it, or more probably, slammed my bedroom door shut and turned up the volume on the Moody Blues, the Beatles, or the Rolling Stones – whatever I was annoying my family with that day. I was 15, you see, and my mother had just died unexpectedly. One afternoon she was there, the next morning she was gone. No warning, no nothing. She was gone. The days and weeks that followed were a blur then, and still are. It was full of moments I do remember, moments in which I sought answers and wondered how my brother and sisters were handling their grief – we never talked about it. We had hoped, you see, that she could still be with us.
I’ve thought like this, said these words aloud and to God. What about you? I disobeyed Christ, in that I walked away from Jerusalem, away from the pain and memories, away from the life Christ gave me. The grief clouded my sight and I didn’t want to see past it.
It happens to all of us. We wish we could have had one more day to say all that needed to be said; we wish we could make things right between our loved ones; we wish it all could have been done differently; said “I love you and always have, always will.”
Valid and real thoughts, honest emotions, these.
We weren’t and aren’t alone. We were and are heard. As we hope and wonder, Jesus comes into our lives with words of comfort and hope. We are reminded that God became one of us, and shared our experience, our joys, our grief, our pain. Jesus reminds us that on the Cross, God took and blessed and broke the most perfect of lives and offered it to us in the midst of suffering so that all sadness and pain might become a bridge to a loving, sustaining presence.
And if there’s a small voice within that still hedges, still whispers, “Yes, but . . .” Then come! I invite you to this table. Come here where Jesus invites you, me, all of us, anyone who is hungry to take as often as necessary the bread that he blessed and broke and shared and drink the cup he pours out for all humanity. Your eyes will be opened and your hearts will be burning with hope.
Jesus will always be with us on our roads and at our tables.
He is risen, Alleluia!
With God's love and mine this Easter season,
Ellen+
17 March, 2008
The Journey of a Lifetime . . . for all Life
So it begins; and so it ends. Some say it is the greatest story ever told. These seven days hold excitement and dread for me - excitement because I never tire of the story, always find something new to ponder; dread because of the long hours of liturgy that culminate in exhaustion. I joke that when Christ climbs out of his tomb, I climb into one.
This is the week that I reflect on what exactly happened. Prophets came and went, were executed, in first century Palestine by the authorities. What made Jesus special?
His special relationship with God - he was the only man, I believe, that fully understood and accepted God's message of unconditional love and how to return it. As God incarnate, he could show us how to love, and demonstrated in a supreme act of sacrifice that unconditional, unwavering love.
I've always had a problem with the atonement theology - that Christ died to take away our sins. If that were so, then why is sin and evil such a problem after two thousand years? This is where my belief of right action and unconditional love comes into play. Yes, Christ died to take away the sins of world, but he died also to show us a new way of living, of loving, of serving. That's what made his ministry stand out among so many first century prophets.
He also kept his word, delivered on his teaching. He said he would rise again after death and return to the Father, that he would be with us always. He said that if we believed, we would have eternal life; if we loved one another, he would be in the midst of us. That's what really made him special. He was, I think, the first to offer a message of hope and change. Christ offered us a new life through his sacrifice and a new way to look at the world and each other and more importantly, to love God, because as he said, he could do nothing except through God.
You see, loving God leads us on the journey of a lifetime, just as Jesus' complete love and understanding of God's call for him, led him on a journey that we commemorate during the next seven days.
This week is Holy Week, and I'll return with reflections on each of the sacred days and hours of liturgy and worship.
I hope during this week you find a path you can walk.
May the peace and love of God, which passes all understanding, keep us and sustain us this Holy Week and always.
Go in peace, dear ones!
Ellen+
This is the week that I reflect on what exactly happened. Prophets came and went, were executed, in first century Palestine by the authorities. What made Jesus special?
His special relationship with God - he was the only man, I believe, that fully understood and accepted God's message of unconditional love and how to return it. As God incarnate, he could show us how to love, and demonstrated in a supreme act of sacrifice that unconditional, unwavering love.
I've always had a problem with the atonement theology - that Christ died to take away our sins. If that were so, then why is sin and evil such a problem after two thousand years? This is where my belief of right action and unconditional love comes into play. Yes, Christ died to take away the sins of world, but he died also to show us a new way of living, of loving, of serving. That's what made his ministry stand out among so many first century prophets.
He also kept his word, delivered on his teaching. He said he would rise again after death and return to the Father, that he would be with us always. He said that if we believed, we would have eternal life; if we loved one another, he would be in the midst of us. That's what really made him special. He was, I think, the first to offer a message of hope and change. Christ offered us a new life through his sacrifice and a new way to look at the world and each other and more importantly, to love God, because as he said, he could do nothing except through God.
You see, loving God leads us on the journey of a lifetime, just as Jesus' complete love and understanding of God's call for him, led him on a journey that we commemorate during the next seven days.
This week is Holy Week, and I'll return with reflections on each of the sacred days and hours of liturgy and worship.
I hope during this week you find a path you can walk.
May the peace and love of God, which passes all understanding, keep us and sustain us this Holy Week and always.
Go in peace, dear ones!
Ellen+
10 March, 2008
The New Life
"In that part of the book of my memory before which little can be read, there is a heading, which says: ‘Incipit vita nova: Here begins the new life’."
So begins the Introduction to La Vita Nova, The New Life, written by Dante.
With this week's Gospel from John 11:1-45, we are witnesses to a new life - both spiritual and physical.
This scripture brings an end to Jesus' earthly ministry and in a sensational way, as if Jesus is pushing the agenda here. He has been giving the apostles clues as to the next chapter of the story, yet it hasn't sunk in yet. What better way to hammer home the message that one is the Son of God by bringing a man four days dead back to life?
I love this story, for it tells of unconditional love, unwavering faith and unfathomable power through the working of God in Christ.
Jesus is en route to Bethany when he learns that his friend Lazarus lies near death. Rather than pick up speed and hurry, Jesus takes his time so that he arrives too late to do anything - or does he? We hear from Martha, Lazarus' sister, a word or two of scolding: "Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died," and then affirmation of Jesus' unique relationship with God: "But even now I know that God will give you whatever you ask of him." This is unwavering faith and love, knowledge that in God all things are possible.
And so it happens. Lazarus is brought back from the dead, but not before Jesus is disturbed at his friend Mary's distress and the grief of those who were with her. The Gospeller tells us that Jesus, greatly disturbed, goes to the tomb and weeps and returns again, still disturbed. I used to wonder why Jesus would be so unhappy when he knew he was going to raise Lazarus from the dead; perhaps we told this, in this very spiritual and mystical of Gospels, to show the human side of Jesus. We are shown a Jesus who is like us.
Or, could be be that Jesus was anticipating, even fearing, his own human limitations and his death?
Whatever the case, Jesus prays to God that those who were present might believe in his power to do God's will on earth, that they may finally understand. Lazarus comes out of the tomb. He has new life, reborn through the saving acts of God through Christ.
As we approach Holy Week, we are given the promise of a new life when we proclaim the risen Lord on Easter Day. We are given the opportunity to climb out of our self-made tombs of despair, stress, selfishness, self-pity and give ourselves totally to God and give God control of our hearts. Releasing ourselves from this kind of death will enable us to live out the Gospel and serve one another as Christ serves us.
That's not a bad life, is it? It's the new life I want, and maybe you do to.
Go forth in Christ, dear ones!
Ellen+
So begins the Introduction to La Vita Nova, The New Life, written by Dante.
With this week's Gospel from John 11:1-45, we are witnesses to a new life - both spiritual and physical.
This scripture brings an end to Jesus' earthly ministry and in a sensational way, as if Jesus is pushing the agenda here. He has been giving the apostles clues as to the next chapter of the story, yet it hasn't sunk in yet. What better way to hammer home the message that one is the Son of God by bringing a man four days dead back to life?
I love this story, for it tells of unconditional love, unwavering faith and unfathomable power through the working of God in Christ.
Jesus is en route to Bethany when he learns that his friend Lazarus lies near death. Rather than pick up speed and hurry, Jesus takes his time so that he arrives too late to do anything - or does he? We hear from Martha, Lazarus' sister, a word or two of scolding: "Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died," and then affirmation of Jesus' unique relationship with God: "But even now I know that God will give you whatever you ask of him." This is unwavering faith and love, knowledge that in God all things are possible.
And so it happens. Lazarus is brought back from the dead, but not before Jesus is disturbed at his friend Mary's distress and the grief of those who were with her. The Gospeller tells us that Jesus, greatly disturbed, goes to the tomb and weeps and returns again, still disturbed. I used to wonder why Jesus would be so unhappy when he knew he was going to raise Lazarus from the dead; perhaps we told this, in this very spiritual and mystical of Gospels, to show the human side of Jesus. We are shown a Jesus who is like us.
Or, could be be that Jesus was anticipating, even fearing, his own human limitations and his death?
Whatever the case, Jesus prays to God that those who were present might believe in his power to do God's will on earth, that they may finally understand. Lazarus comes out of the tomb. He has new life, reborn through the saving acts of God through Christ.
As we approach Holy Week, we are given the promise of a new life when we proclaim the risen Lord on Easter Day. We are given the opportunity to climb out of our self-made tombs of despair, stress, selfishness, self-pity and give ourselves totally to God and give God control of our hearts. Releasing ourselves from this kind of death will enable us to live out the Gospel and serve one another as Christ serves us.
That's not a bad life, is it? It's the new life I want, and maybe you do to.
Go forth in Christ, dear ones!
Ellen+
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